Spilling out my entrails for everyone to see is a god awful feeling, it's scary. So I decided to make a map about the music I listen to, like hey that's simple enough. It's an important part of myself that isn't emotionally over bearing on who ever is looking at my map. Even then I was afraid of sharing too much, and in my presentation I stuck to the surface level meaning of my map: this is tall because I like it more than that. I didn't explain things like why certain music genres were more popular than others.
|I wonder what bops he's listenin' to.|
After listening to everyone's map I felt bad. A good half of the class told their life stories and I didn't think it was fair for me to try and hide parts of myself by purposefully simplifying my topographical map, on top of choosing something as simple as the music I listen to. Because I don't feel I was being truly authentic by not providing full explanations for the main aspects of my map, I'll explain some here.
The music genres of the highest altitude represent the genres I listen to the most, that is classical and various branches of metal. I enjoy listening to classical bops because I love the sound of violin, cello, and piano. The sounds those instruments make, make my soul feel as if it's being caressed. The notes feel personal and I've always felt that the only way I can truly be understood is to move someone with my own melodies. Because of that personal philosophy, at points in my life I asked for each instrument. I got my cousin's violin but never learned to play. I got my great grandmother's piano but could only managed to teach myself the Harry Potter theme song and a few other bops. Simply put, I relish in classical music because I long for a musical skill I may never acquire and I often feel the need to crawl into Amadeus' arms when I feel he's the only person who could ever truly understand me.
|A meme that simply could not be wasted|
|Not just any metal|
I kinda bailed on the importance of one landscape though: the Disco Dunes. Dunes aren't always that small (they were the size of a dime on my map) they can reach up to 500+ feet, taller than any pine tree could grow in Alt Forest or any geyser could spray in Ambient music land. I listen to Disco (modern electronic disco) more than acid rap, so my representation of land masses weren't all that accurate. I listen to Daft Punk and EDM nearly as much as I listen to Metallica and Five Finger Death Punch or Yo-Yo Ma and Schubert. I wasn't honest because I described the Disco Dunes as a home for "end of the world music"; I felt that if I were honest, my map would be reduced to just another rendition of how much I struggle with wanting to die. And that's boring. But that didn't happen so it's all okay. TOK personal projects stress me out.